Note: TGIF stands for Trust, Gratitude, and Inspiration Friday. It's the brain child of Brené Brown. She writes that it comes from the idea that joy is more like twinkle lights because it comes only in moments, those ordinary, everyday moments. But, we miss those because we're so busy wanting more, or looking for something more extraordinary. "I believe a joyful life is made up of joyful moments gracefully strung together by trust, gratitude, and inspiration."
After this week of ups and downs and tears and smiles and chocolate and cupcake wine, I decided I wanted to do TGIF. I need it.
Trust: I'm trusting my soul next week. Well, beginning tomorrow. And I'm trusting the fact that I am not an impostor and that I am doing what I should be doing with my life. I love what I do. I'm good at what I do, dammit. I'm also going to trust more in my relationships, because honestly, I have some beautiful people in my life who would gladly listen to me and let me work through my anxiety.
Gratitude: I'm grateful for this blog and I'm grateful facebook. I'm grateful for a place to lay out my soul, even the icky parts of it. I'm learning to be more vulnerable and open, which is what I wanted. It's pretty painful at times, but it's good for me. I'm also grateful for facebook and the family which I have there. I was inundated with love messages and comments, and that reminds me how loved I am. Finally, I'm grateful for my husband. I'm unbelievably blessed to have a person in my life who can read me like the books he loves and knows what I need. When I feel topsy turvy, he jumps on and helps me out. Even if that just means laying in bed for 30 minutes one night to shut out the gremlins. And tea, I'm always grateful for tea.
Inspiration: I'm inspired by a lot. I'm inspired by the women whose blogs I read and how honest they are. I'm inspired by the beautiful weather that's teasing us. I'm inspired by my work and the amazing-ness of the students I talk to and hang out with.
And, today, I'm looking forward to:
Painting at Silly's with my "cousin"
Going to the ballet with an amazing group of people
Eating and drinking with that same group
Finishing the cookies that a friend brought me
And putting orajel on my wisdom tooth which is currently cutting.
How about you, my friends. What's your TGIF?